LIGHT BULB MOMENTS

After I talked to you last night, I took two pain pills, and cleaned my room! I cleaned for six hours, you know the drill, clean five minutes, plan to clean for an hour, clean for ten minutes, plan for another hour - at this rate, my room may be done by June or July. Today I have been paying for it, I hurt really bad and if I take enough pain pills to feel better, I would go to sleep. But I am so proud of myself for at least accomplishing something, I just take something for my nerves, and revel in my accomplishment. I talked Dustin into forgoing the "quitting smoking thing" for now. I, truthfully am not ready to quit smoking, but I am definetely ready to feel better! I have so many days that I just sit and hurt, I hurt so bad especially in my arms and shoulders, that I can't even crochet. So, I want my cigarettes to keep me company. So, a new plan is in the works, and I'll keep you posted as to what we're doing. I want to ask you guys something. When did YOU know that there was "something wrong"? I had two ( as Oprah says "lightbulb moments") First, I was walking through the mall and all of a sudden, it felt like I was walking through water up to my waist - and secondly, when I was teaching beauty school, one of my students walked up behind me and started rubbing my shoulders, I burst into tears because of the pain this caused. Oh yeah, something else, I got out of a pool about twenty years ago, and found that I could hardly walk. In the past, when getting out, I felt almost weightless, but this day, it felt like each leg weighed 500 lbs. (by the way how do they get LBS from pounds?) What are some of the things that happened to you? And are you SURE you have FS? There are SO many doctors that label, or diagnose, people with this and they simply DON'T have it. If you have been diagnosed with it make sure you are dealing with a reputible diagonistition. I have said way too much tonight, but, as in my real life, the better I feel, the more I talk. Whether it's with my mouth or my fingers!! Until tomorrow - DEBBY