Thy, not my, will be done

Hi guys - thinking positive, and a lot of prayer, worked ! Today was an absolute gift from God ! I did things today that I usually only dream of doing - I WASHED DISHES -BY HAND - I TOOK MY OWN TRASH OUT ( not an easy feat as I live on the fourth floor, at the end of the hallway, and the garbage goes outside!) I'VE CLEANED,off and on, ALL DAY ! I know ALL days are gifts from God, but here lately, I haven't appreciated them. Have any of you lost a child? I want to tell you, it does something to you that you just can't possibly imagine. In your heart you know that their problems are over and they are in a better place, but in your heart, you want to be there with them. I guess you can tell that I'm really tired. When I'm busy, I can concentrate on what I'm doing and actually have some happy thoughts, but when I'm tired, or hurting, or having a day that I can't make my body move, Drew consumes almost my every thought. That's why I get so frustrated when I have so many days like that together. I know that it sounds like that I'm still in a bad mood, but I'm really not. Just tired (my FAVORITE feeling) and sad. I can certainly live with that ! I am going to wash one more load of dishes, and go to bed. The way my day has gone, I'm even positive that I will be blessed with sleep!
Until tomorrow --- Debby